Noah Cyrus Courageously Opened Up About Her Addiction To Xanax And What Her Journey To Recovery Looked Like

Noah Cyrus often despised being regarded as “Miley Cyrus’ little sister.” It is not that she was not proud of her sister, nor the fame that her family had worked for. She just wanted to feel like her own person.
As a child, she found refuge in quiet places such as Far West Farms– a family-run riding center located in Calabasas, California.
The simplicity and silence quieted the thoughts in her mind, and she continues to find solace at the farm to this day.
She is especially grateful it has remained her sanctuary all these years, even after her experience with substance abuse.
Noah recently opened up about her struggle with Xanax addiction for the first time in a Rolling Stone interview with Julyssa Lopez.
She described how, as a teen, she never gravitated toward party drugs that amplified your senses.
Instead, she explained feeling too mentally overwhelmed already. But, after entering a relationship at the ripe age of eighteen with a man who enjoyed using downers, Noah realized two things– she wanted to fit in with his scene, and, in doing so, she was able to temporarily suspend her thoughts.
“My boyfriend… was the first person that gave me a Xanax, and it became a way for us to bond. I think I wanted to fit in with him; I wanted to be what he wanted, what he thought was cool, and what I thought everybody was doing,” Noah said.
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“Once I felt that it was possible to silence things out for a second and numb your pain, it was over,” she continued.
Noah’s struggle with Xanax paralleled a rise of benzo usage in pop culture and Hollywood. Other ultra-famous artists such as Justin Bieber, Lil Xan, and Chance the Rapper have also opened up about their experiences using the prescription drug.
And she believes that the easy accessibility is what contributed to her downfall.
“I was surrounded by people who were easily able to get it by buying it from people,” Noah explained. Soon, what began as a recreational habit turned into a daily necessity.
“It just kind of becomes this dark, bottomless pit,” she said.
From 2018 on, Noah’s substance abuse problem continued to progress. And once the pandemic hit, she described reaching rock bottom.
Her grandma, Loretta, passed away in August of 2020, and Noah still regrets being mentally absent during her final days.
“I felt so guilty for not being there when my grandma died. I was there physically. But, emotionally, I was not there. I couldn’t be,” Noah said.
Although, her grandmother’s death also represented a significant turning point in Noah’s addiction. Not only did she feel remorse about drifting from her grandma, but Noah also realized she was pushing away her mother, Tish.
“That was my big eye-opener: I was sitting alone, I was scared, and I realized that all the people I love and all the people that I need– I was the one pushing them away,” she reflected.
Afterward, Noah began her recovery journey. She decided not to open up about the first few months of the recovery process but shared that she “was being helped by everybody she needed help from.”
And like many artists, Noah began to channel her feelings into her music. She also recognized that she could not hide her struggles anymore and wanted the opportunity to tell her story in her own words.
In turn, much of Noah’s debut LP, entitled The Hardest Part, is inspired by her struggle with addiction, recovery, and mending the broken relationships in her life.
She even opened the album with the extremely raw lyric: “When I turned twenty, I was overcome with the thought that I might not turn twenty-one. Death upon my doorstep, if I took just one more step, there’d be nothing left of me except these songs…”
Moreover, Noah’s cathartic songwriting experience is what inspired her to fully open up with fans once and for all.
She does not want to be known as a role model or spokesperson for recovery, though. Noah just wanted to be transparent and tell her truth.
“I, myself, am just going through it and figuring it out,” she explained.
Nonetheless, her routine now– which emphasizes therapy and plenty of time at home with her dogs– has allowed Noah to make great strides in her mental health journey.
“I wake up in the mornings, and I am able to look in a mirror and go on about my day without hating myself. I am able to comfort myself and nurture myself,” Noah said.
And at the end of the day, that is the most important part.
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