Chip Chick
“I know that sounds awful. I look at her and I see the beautiful woman I fell in love with, and I see the memories we made, and I am holding on to the hope that one day I will be able to experience this again. But in reality, there’s not much left of the girl I used to know. There’s not much left of who I used to be.”
He’s depressed at this rate and excruciatingly lonely on top of it. He’s going to therapy, but he doesn’t see a way out of this.
He loves his girlfriend, but her chronic illness is too much of a burden for him to keep bearing. And the love he has for her isn’t all that reassuring, as he still feels trapped in their relationship.
He’s terrified to dump her since he has spent years picturing a future that includes his girlfriend. They discussed having kids one day and purchasing a home in the country.
“I can’t imagine not having her by my side,” he continued. “I also know it would break her. She doesn’t have anyone; she only trusts me, and I know she loves me a lot.”
“So…can I imagine leaving her? No. But the thought that scares me even more…is not breaking up. Living together for the rest of our lives. Never being able to feel peace in my home anymore. Having to emotionally be there for someone with no room for myself.”
“I never told her she is a burden. She is suffering so much, and then I should be complaining, the “healthy” one? That’s not fair. I‘m just at a loss for what I can do without losing my sanity.”
What advice do you have for him?
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