He Gave His Wife A Second Chance After She Cheated On Him With A Coworker, But In The Process, He Lost Himself
Exactly two years ago, this 30-year-old man found out that his 29-year-old wife was cheating on him with one of her coworkers.
He did decide to give his wife a second chance, and they have remained married. He can honestly say that his wife has made an effort to earn that second chance from him.
She has since granted him access to all of her devices and accounts, she calls him to let him know her whereabouts, and she doesn’t go out without him with her.
“…We went to counseling and therapy, but all that only caused me to die inside,” he explained. “I really tried. I fought with paranoia, depression, my feelings, and thoughts, and I don’t know if I can do it anymore.”
“I always hated cheaters with absolute disdain. I really wish nothing good comes to them, yet in a moment of weakness, I gave in and gave her another chance. I feel like I betrayed myself and swallowed all my pride and self-respect for her.”
He admits that he was overwhelmed by his love for his wife when he agreed to stay married to her, and he believed maybe something great would come from going to therapy.
But sadly, he was wrong. He’s completely and utterly miserable, and nothing has helped him feel better about giving his wife another shot.
From the outside looking in, he appears to be happy. He smiles and pretends everything is fine. But he is falling apart every single day; he just hides it well.
He also admits that he has completely lost himself in the process of attempting to move past his wife’s infidelity.
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“I’m disgusted by her,” he said. “Every time I look at her, all I see is pain and betrayal, and when she laughs at me, I feel like she sees a weak man who she can manipulate.”
“I hate her touch; it makes me feel filthy. All her words became meaningless. I don’t even feel the weight of some words; I guess I don’t care. I feel like I’m in a prison. I have to constantly think about where she is and what she is doing.”
Even though his wife gives him a detailed account of where she is going, who she is going with, and when he can expect her back at home, he’s exhausted having to even do this.
His life has grown to feel fragile and like it can crack at any moment in time. His wife’s cheating has left him with trauma.
He admits he wasted the last two years of both of their lives hoping for a second chance. He is aware how he’s living is hardly healthy. But while he’s miserable, his wife is not.
“She is happy, probably the happiest she’s ever been. Meanwhile, I live a life that is a lie, feeling sad, worthless, and unhappy,” he continued.
He’s curious if his awful feelings will go away with more time and if they’re valid in the first place.
What do you think?
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