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Mom Says She’s Moving Her Disabled Son Out Of Her House And Into A Residential Facility And She’s Not Sorry

“We were told when I was pregnant that he would have Downs Syndrome. We could handle that. Even if it was severe.”

“It turned out he has a chromosome deletion.”

“His disorder is kind of rare so I won’t post which specific one but suffice to say he’ll never be anything more than he is now or has ever been.”

“And what he is, is nothing.”

“He doesn’t appear to have any awareness and never has. His eyes are locked in one position, he doesn’t respond to noise, touch, or pain.”

“He is total care. He is capable of nothing. He is tube fed and on oxygen. He is in diapers and will be forever.”

“He makes no sounds, no attempts to communicate. He never even really cried as a baby.”

“He has never made an attempt to interact with anyone or his environment.”

“I’m not upset because I got a special needs/”imperfect” child. I feel the way I feel because this…… thing….. takes up 200% of my time and does NOTHING. I didn’t get an imperfect child. I didn’t get a child.”

“I don’t love him. He doesn’t have any personality, there is nothing to love. And yet I’m responsible for him. In addition to his extreme delays he’s also medically fragile.”

“Respiratory crises, fecal impactions (his autonomic nervous system doesn’t function properly), issues with his G tube, infections, pressure sores no matter WHAT we put him on or how we position him.”

“Our older son has suffered because his non existent brother has colored everything in his life. He’s had medical care get delayed because there’s only one of me and hos brother is more critical.”

“We do have a visiting home nurse but only 20 hrs/week and we aren’t eligible for more. I was starting law school, I gave up my dreams and my plan for my children for this potato.”

“My older son can’t do a lot of things he wants to do because of the younger’s need for care and appointments.”

“The final straw was I heard a sound. I went into Younger Son’s room to check, thinking he had forgotten how to breathe again, and saw Older Son hitting him and screaming “You’re why I don’t have a mother! You’re why I don’t have a father! You’re why I can’t have friends over! You’re why I can’t be in sports! I didn’t ask for you and I hope you die!”

“Instead of being horrified, I watched. And Younger Son just did. not. react. No signs of pain or fear or upset. No reaction at all.”

“He breathes but he is not alive. He doesn’t know who I am. He doesn’t know who Older Son is. He has no sense of self, life experience, or awareness of his surroundings.”

“He doesn’t need to be in my home. He doesn’t know or care where he is. He is genetically my son but he is not family.”

“My previously abused, brain damaged cat who can’t walk straight has more personality and is far more loveable than my “child”.”

“In fact I was looking FORWARD to raising a Downs baby.”

“Even one with severe impairments, for that reason. With disability can come gifts. This boy is not a gift.”

“He is a genetic mistake I probably should have miscarried and would have definitely terminated if I’d known he would be like this.”

“And the flip side is, if he HAS awareness….. he’s miserable. And there is nothing I can do. If he has likes and dislikes no one knows what they are.”

“If he is in pain he can’t tell anyone. If he wants anything, he can’t communicate. He’s had every imaginable therapy, nothing has made a difference.”

“And so he’s leaving our home on the 29th. I feel excited and relieved and then guilty because I know we’ll be happier with him gone.”

“He’s already taken my husband and my son’s father. He was working so so so much OT to pay for the cucumber’s care.”

“For the experimental therapies insurance wouldn’t cover. Because THIS one was going to be the BREAKTHROUGH. He was tired and defeated and disappointed.”

“He sought counseling as well but I don’t think he could ever say the words “I don’t want my son in my home” either.”

“He’s ruined my older son. I was so wrapped up on the younger I never realized how ignored and damaged he was. He lost his father too.”

“I didn’t just lose my husband. HE is my priority now and this malignant lump can be someone else’s problem.”

“At least they’ll be paid a wage to care for him. At least they’ll get a break from him when they punch out.”

“I just want to never think of him again and I’m not sorry. And for that, I’m sorry. Thanks for reading.”

You can read her original post on Reddit here.

Bre is a female millennial go getter residing in New York. One part entrepreneur, one part geek, she obtained her degree in Textile/Surface Design from The Fashion Institute of Technology.

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